justrun-.

today i feel annoyed. i think it's my weight, my weight annoys me a lot. and i really am very peeved at how i managed to put on weight over the past 4 days despite making a conscious effort to control. i don't know what it is that i'm eating that is making me so fat!?! roar. like maybe it was the extra cheese that landed in my spaghetti sauce (rah it was not nice :( ), or the super gross curry that popped up from nowhere on weds (usually weds lunch is salmon salad and instead i got gross fish curry with a thick layer of oil on the top that tasted so ew and fatty and oily). or maybe it was the rice on monday. or maybe it was oily egg yesterday. ok i sound looney.

boohoo i want to live in a cedele where i can eat my yummy salads and soups and breads all day without having to worry about oily buttery cheesy things. i can't stand them! they don't taste nice and they make me feel gross and ew. i am starting to hate meat. i don't mind fish, but chicken, beef, pork whatever, they always taste so fatty and bleagh. is there a name for non-meat eaters who only eat fish? :S vegefishitarian? ahha

stupid body is so sensitive to changes in diet. i was so happy with my wasa and salad in KL. plus my early dinners. then the moment i change a beet then i ballooon like a pig.

it's weird that i can see myself growing horizontally over such a short period of time even though i am really eating rather "normally" and not like stuffing my face or anything.

ho ho i am annoyed. i am also annoyed that i am stressing over cross which is in what. less than three weeks. doubt i'll even make the team, but in any case time trials/ workouts are hell stressful and i wish i could revert to leisure exercise where muscle glycogen levels and speed don't really matter.

MOOOOOOOOO. today we went to ikea and daddy got me a LUNS ahha. yay i can put my luns up on my wall and it will be so pretty but it still needs fixing up. i did something stupid during dinner at ikea..i put the tuna s'wich (with gladwrap and plastic packaging) into the microwave oven. cos the instructions next to the swich read "put in microwave oven and press 2". so that is exactly what i did. didn't bother to take off the plastic stuff, and when i took it out of the m-oven the plastic had melted. such a stupid thing to do. like oh my do i even have brains.

ok i don't knwo why i am so grumpy. yuck. GRUMPY ME. tmr will be a happier day. right? right.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [22:28]

and took [20080403] strides

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